Today the Supreme Court started hearing arguments for and against same-sex marriage.  I will not express my views, as that is irrelevant to my post.  What is relevant is what I saw being posted on Facebook all day.  Hatred on both sides of the issue.  Yes, BOTH sides.  Though, I will say that I saw less hateful posts from those against same-sex marriage than I did from those that are for it.  This saddens me.

I saw some people posting ‘verses’ of the Bible trying to prove how racist and full of hate the Bible is, thereby implying that anyone that follows must be full of hate.  Here’s the problem with that; they are not reading the entire passage, and therefore taking it completely out of context.  That is one of my pet peeves.  If you are going to criticize a book and make accusations about it, at least read the whole thing and study it.  That way you can at least know what you are talking about.  Otherwise, you are going to sound like someone full of hate and animosity because you just don’t know.

There are very few beliefs that I will counter, because I don’t know enough about them.  Besides, it is not up to me to judge those beliefs or that person.  I’m only to present the truth, according to the Bible, to strive to live as Jesus lived, and to love all.  These are not easy things to do.  I struggle with one or more of these items constantly.  I am tested consistently and there are times that I fail.  But I do try to learn from it and move on.

Those that hate, or try to incite me to anger and hate them, honestly, I feel sorry for them.  I occasionally pray for them.  I probably should pray for them daily, however, I tend to forget because in my prayer, I spend so much time thanking God for all that he provides for me.  I’ve been so blessed, and God continues to bless me, that I cannot thank him enough.  God has given me a wonderful job, a house, a wonderful family, a fantastic church family, wonderful friends, and has provided everything that I needed.  Why wouldn’t I be thankful for that?

Even hubby’s migraine for the past 19 months is a blessing.  I have no idea how, yet, but it will reveal itself at some point.  When God has deemed it time for the migraine to go away, it will.  I have complete faith in that.  And yes, I say that knowing that we are trying to get him approved for a surgery that is supposed to help him.  It is still in God’s hands.

So, sadness is my word for the day.  I am saddened by the hatred I see around me and many that don’t think it is hatred, they think they are ‘educating’ those around them.  Instead, they are trying to bully those with a different point of view.  I feel for them, and I shall pray for them.



I’ve made mayonnaise from scratch before.  I stopped because I had been making it in a blender and my blender started scrambling the eggs.  Therefore, not good mayo.  Today, I realized I could use my food processor.  I also found a recipe that called for a whole egg, not just egg yolks.  Great option for me since I really am not fond of separating eggs.  My 9 year old helped me, and unfortunately, she isn’t great at listening to explicit instructions and started adding the olive oil a little faster than I preferred.  I also erred in that I put the olive oil in the wrong measuring cup and it didn’t pour nicely.  I got oil all over the counter.  Oops!  Overall, it came out fine, and will serve its purpose of giving me mayo that I can eat that doesn’t have soy in it.  I made a chicken salad sandwich for dinner so that I would have some protein.  I’ll probably hard-boil some eggs tomorrow so that I can make some egg salad.  I will need to stop by the local veggie guy and pick up some celery to add to it.

As for the chocolate that I made last night – definitely a dark chocolate.  I prefer dark chocolate to milk chocolate, but this is even a bit much for me.  I’ll definitely be limiting myself to one of these a day.  Any more than that and it will be too much to handle.   it also tastes better cold out of the freezer.  I will need to think of how to tone it down a little.  But, they are definitely edible and will get eaten.


Ok, my biggest vice is chocolate.  If I’m having a rough day, I go grab chocolate.  If I’m having a good day, I go grab chocolate.  Take a look at your basic chocolate bar.  It contains soy lethicin.  Not a good thing if you are trying to eliminate soy from your diet.  So, the internet is a wonderful thing.  I went online and found a recipe on how to make my own chocolate, from cocoa powder.  I have Dutch cocoa powder, so, I figured I would give it a try.  Right now, it’s still chilling in the decorative molds that I had.  Granted, most of them are Christmas themed, but I’m ok with that. But the warmed liquid chocolate tasted pretty good.  It definitely a dark chocolate.  So, depending on what I can figure out with this, I’ll need to adjust the amount of milk and sugar ratio to cocoa.  Thankfully, I really do prefer dark chocolate, so it shouldn’t be an issue to eat this.  The last half of the batch, I put some mint extract in it to make a minty chocolate.  probably won’t do that for the dark chocolate again, as I didn’t like that taste as much.  but once I figure out the lighter chocolate, well, it will definitely go in that batch.

I know, another quick post, but my toast with almond butter is getting cold, so I need to go eat. 😉

Almond Butter

Today, I happened to get in email, from a recipe list that I subscribe to, the recipe for homemade peanut butter.  I’ve looked it up before, even before realizing that they use soy oil in most, if not all peanut butters, and never tried to make it.  I’m not sure why, probably laziness to be honest.  So, today, I figured I would check it out.  My first thought as I was clicking was “I bet they use vegetable oil, in which case, that is out of the question.”  To my happy surprise, she didn’t.  She didn’t use oil at all.  YAY!!!  All that was involved were the peanuts and a food processor.  Salt to taste as needed.  I figured I would give it a try.  Except, the only peanuts I have on hand, I would have to shell.  Ok, chalk up another lazy bit.  I didn’t feel like shelling a pound of peanuts tonight.  Oh, but we did have almonds.  Done deal.

I measured out a pound of almonds, put them in the processor, and put it on high for a long time.  Ok, it was about 10 minutes.  Because almonds don’t have the natural oil that peanuts do, I added some sesame oil at the end to thin it out a little.  I also added some Kosher salt.  And guess what?  It was pretty darn good.  I gave some to the elderly lady that we take care of and she LOVED it.  Said it was the best almond butter she’s ever had.  So, for the true directions, go here.  I was surprised that it came out pretty well.

Tomorrow, I will attempt Cinnamon Rolls in my bread maker, maybe.  It all depends on how tired I am in the morning.

Eye opening experience

Something I have not talked about here or other places.  There are a select few outside of my family that know the health issues I’ve been having.  It isn’t that I don’t want people to know, just never felt it was necessary to go into it.  So, I’ll give a brief history.  For years, I’ve had trouble when I eat.  It was an annoyance, and in 2010, it finally came to a point that it was interfering with my life to a point that I needed to see a doctor about it.  Since then, they haven’t been able to figure out why.  Last summer, I start suffering more pain and nausea than normal.  I wound up in the Emergency Room because of it.  It then got worse over the next few weeks, and finally settled a little in the fall.  During that few week time period (maybe 6 weeks?) I lost 30 lbs.  My doctors were not happy about that.  I have for the most part, stopped losing weight and kept it steady, but I still have the pain and nausea and pretty have been trying to just live with it.  All my tests kept coming up negative.  Allergy tests came up negative,  and so on.  They finally did a video capsule test where I had to swallow a digital camera that took 2 pictures a second to examine my system.  They thought they saw two possible bulges in my intestine and sent me to a specialist.  I saw that specialist this past week.  Everything is fine.  No bulges, just muscles.  So, what next?  She recommended some special diets for me to try, as she felt that I was just sensitive to certain foods.  Ok, I’ve done it before, I’ll do it again.

Here’s the eye opening part.  Part of the special diet was the first day or two, pure liquid diet with the exception that I could have 6 saltine crackers during the day.  Was instructed to check the ingredients.  Now, I’m going to pause here for a moment and mention that years ago, I discovered that I did not do well with soy products.  I found out when I was fed Tofu and it made me feel sick.  I thought it was the texture of it, but just stayed away from soy as a precaution.  Ok, back to present day… I went looking for white bread (another approved item was 1 slice of white toast a day for a few days) and looked the ingredients.  Every single loaf of bread, white or whole grain, or Italian, sourdough, etc, had soy flour or soy oil, or both.  Hmmmm, ok, looks like I’ll have to bake bread now.  Went to the cracker aisle to get saltines.  Guess what?  Saltines were made with Soy flour.  Ok, have to make my own saltines.

I came home and we started looking at some basic items in our pantry.  I also went online and looked for more information.  Here is a list of items that have Soy in some way or another, that I found from this site:


Bulking Agent




Emulsifiers (if unspecified)

Gum Arabic

Guar Gum

Hydrolyzed Vegetable Protein or Hydrolyzed Protein (HVP)


Isolated Soy Protein






Mono and Diglycerides

Mono Sodium Glutamates (MSG)


Natural, Organic or Artificial Flavors (if the flavor isn’t listed in brackets beside it then it’s most likely soy-based)



Shoyu Sauce


Soy (anything with this term included)


Soy Oil (Crisco, Pam Spray etc)

Soy Protein Concentrate




Textured Soy Flour (TSF)

Textured Soy Protein (TSP)

Textured Plant Protein (TVP)




Unspecified Sprouts

Vegetable Broth

Vegetable Gum

Vegetable Paste

Vegetable Protein

Vegetable Oil

Vegetable Shortening

Vegetable Starch

Vitamin E


Instant coffee


Canned tuna


Now, last night, hubby and I were talking about all this.  One of the items we were shocked that had soy?  Peanut butter.  yes, Jif peanut butter uses soy oil to make its peanut butter.

So, while my family has tried to be aware of what we’ve been eating, we were not aware enough.  So, my first step is to remove all soy from my diet completely to see if I start doing better.  It will take time as I’ve had it in my system for a long time.  And who knows, maybe this is not the cause of all my trouble.  But I know it isn’t helping.

Truth script for AWANA

Every year, the AWANA leaders are challenged with memorizing a “Truth Script.”  I failed last year, but did complete it the year before that.  I intend to complete it this year.  To help me memorize it, I’m going to go over the verses and their meaning.

Philippians 2: 12-18

12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

Wherefore, or ‘for that’, my beloved.  Beloved being a term of endearment to those that Paul is writing to in Phillipi.  “As ya have always obeyed, not as in my presence only” meaning as you, the people in the church of Phillipi, which is now, in modern day, the church, that are obeying while he is present.  “but now much more in my absence…” This is stating that it is more important to obey when not in the presence of others.  “…work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.”  This is part of the obey, as it helps us work out our salvation with fear and trembling.  A challenge I give my TREK kids is that when they are about to do something, would they do it if Jesus was standing next to them.  If not, then don’t do it.

13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

Through obeying, Gog work in us, to do his will and pleasing him.

14 Do all things without murmurings and disputings:

We are to do all things without murmurings, aka grumbling, and disputings, aka arguing.

15 That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world;

We do this so that we may be blameless and harmless (as in, without the power or desire to do harm), the sons of God.  We are the sons and daughters of God, he has adopted us into his family when we accept him. “…without rebuke” The definition of rebuke is: to express sharp, stern disapproval of; reprove; reprimand.  “… in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation,…” being within a crooked and perverse (contrary) nation (a large body of people).  “…among whom ye shine as lights in the world.  So, in summary on this one, we are  to be blameless and have no desire to do harm, as those that are part of God’s family, without reprimand, while in the middle of a crooked and contrary people, within whom we are to shine as lights in the world.

16 Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.

Holding forth the word of life is holding true to the word of God, that he may rejoice in the day of Christ, and that he has not run or labored in vain.  That we have followed the correct path.

17 Yea, and if I be offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy, and rejoice with you all.

Yes, and if we are offered as a sacrifice and service for our faith, there is joy and rejoicing among us all.

18 For the same cause also do ye joy, and rejoice with me.

For with the same cause, we have joy and rejoice for others.

In short, be an excellent example of how God wants us to be so that others will see God through us.


Now, back to memorizing.


It’s been awhile since I’ve written and I have no excuse.  I’ve been busy, tired, and just not feeling it.  So, I’m trying to get back into it.  So, why now?  Yesterday, I was reminded, via music, about God‘s faith and how he doesn’t give up on us.  I’ll go into a little of how this all happened.

Yesterday morning, while I was in the shower, a song kept going through my head.  Not a song that I listen to often, but it kept going through my head, over and over.  At the time, I couldn’t even have told you who sang it.  I then got into the car and started up the CD that was already in the CD player.  I don’t often listen to my CDs, since I have my MP3 player, so it had been awhile.  What was the first song that came on?  This one:

God so loved, that He gave His son
To lay down His life for the sake of us
He bore the weight of our sin and shame
With a cry He said, It is finished

Christ the Lord overcame the darkness
He’s alive: death has been defeated

For He made us a way
by which we have been saved
He’s the Savior of the world
So we lift up a shout for his fame and renown
Praise the Lord
Praise the Lord
Jesus, Savior of the world

We must spread the word of His soon return
To reclaim the world for His glory
Let the church now sing of this coming King
Crowned with majesty, our Redeemer

And He reigns, ruler of the heavens
And His name is Jesus, the Messiah

Christ the Lord overcame the darkness
He’s alive: death has been defeated
And He reigns, ruler of the heavens
And His name is Jesus, the Messiah

Yes, good reminder.  But it didn’t stop there.  I then heard a song on the album, that reminded me of an absolutely fantastic young woman that I know, and admire.  That song was this one:
“All The Way”

We’re joining with You God
Everything You’re doing
Your fire is in our hearts
Burning for the broken
We open wide our arms
A refuge for the hurting
Your mercy is our song
We’re joining with You God

We’re going all the way
We’re gonna walk by faith
Giving You everything, everything, everything
We’re going all the way

Our strength, our victory
We can not be shaken
A light for all to see
Shining in the darkness
We can’t contain Your love
That purchased us our freedom
Salvation is our song
Our strength, our victory

We’re holding nothing back
Giving You everything, everything
We’re joining with You God
You can do anything, anything

So, why did this song remind me of this young woman?  This young woman graduated from high school a year ago, and God has put it on her heart to be a missionary.  She reflects the servant God wants us to be.  She has such a wonderful heart and soul, and I can only hope that my own girls grow up to be like her.  I respect all that this young lady does and goes through.  Listening to this song yesterday morning while running my errands, I started tearing up thinking about all she is doing, and will be doing.   Her heart is really full of God and his love and she lets that shine through in all she does.  I ask that you pray for her and her fellow students to follow God’s will and direction for them.
It reminds me that I don’t do nearly enough.  I’m not sure what I can do to reflect the same way she does, but I’m inspired to try.
As I need to get ready to the family BBQ for my kid’s school, I will leave it at this for now.  God bless!